Ray, the one thing you’ve always been is a brutally honest, no-frills kinda guy, generous and loyal, willing to step up when things get tough and the first to admit your own shortcomings or screw-ups. I personally value your candor and would definitely trust you with my life, money & anything I hold dear.
I think BASE jumpers are a unique band of brothers (and sisters), a beautiful but dysfunctional melting pot of sensitive and volatile personalities, ethical outlaws who break all rules of conventionality but demand to be protected under the same rules that we break. We look out for each other and we are each other’s worst critics. We lay with our wounded and we tar & feather those who burn our sites. The dichotomies abound.
It takes all types to round-out a subculture as distinctive as BASE and I never thought that I, as a devoted Christian, would ever consider die-hard atheists (and borderline Satan-worshippers :-P) as some of my dearest friends. But these are people that I’d lay down my life for and for whom I’d shed countless tears for if they were to leave this place.
I look back on the past 5 or so years that have been filled with both the best of times and the worst imaginable pain. Losing so many loved ones out of our ‘core’ group - Nik, Dwain & Slim - certainly took its toll on everyone and things will never be the same. But that’s simply the evolution of BASE and of life. People manage their struggles in their own way and do the best they can to get by.
I don’t judge or criticize Ray for being pissed off at Doug - he has reason to be. I have plenty reason to be. And so do quite a few others for one reason or another - the list is long and the reasons run pretty darn convoluted and deep. It’s a challenge for those of us who’ve been burned by Doug to immediately feel sympathy or empathy for him, after we’ve extended trust and reached out in friendship and sincerity to him for so long. Lashing out at Doug on the boards was a visceral knee-jerk reaction by people who’ve been hurt by him, maybe something akin to cracking a smile when the schoolyard bully gets taken to the principle’s office.
BUT, I don’t agree that it’s right or productive in the long run to be gleeful at another person’s hard times. The bitterness will slowly eat away at your soul and turn into a dark ugliness, which is hard to get rid of after it’s been sitting there for a while. And the cheerful gloating will eventually turn into a weird type of guilt/shame-complex… I believe this because I know that those who are pissed off at Doug are good quality people and will probably see things in a different light at some point in the future, feeling bad later on.
We all dig our own ditches and must accept full culpability for the choices we make. None of us is perfect and if we choose to, we can all peer into each other’s glass houses. Doug made some risky choices in many areas of his life and he’s now having to deal with the consequences. I personally don’t wish ill upon him at all and hope that things work out in the best possible way for him. Everyone deserves compassion and I think it’s pretty safe to say that we’ve all been granted 2nd (and 3rd/10th/101st) chances in life. That’s the beauty of it all -- nothing’s ever set in stone in this life.
In the end, there are more important things going on in the world and in our lives to focus on. Let’s turn our attention toward those and keep good vibes out there for ALL who need them.
- Karin




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